It is all about perspective!

Well, it has been an interesting somewhat emotional week for me. This week was all about uncertainty. There were some major changes that impacted my job at church, some major changes that impacted Jim's job, and of course some of the wondering about the baby.

First, let me say that at this point both of Jim and I's jobs are not in danger of being lost. In fact, mine could be evolving (which is a good thing). It was really more about uncertainity about the future and what that means for your family. When you are pregnant and contemplating the changes a baby will make to your world (and maybe just a bit emotional as it is), it seemed like there wasn't anything certain to hold on to.

Through out the week, though, God gave us some prespective. First, there is the perspective that we don't live in Haiti, we aren't starving, our family is healthy, our marriage is strong (and just at a really good place right now), exciting things are happening at church that I get to be a major part of it, and the list just goes on and on. Do we get caught up in wanting more or to be where other people appear to be sometimes? Absolutely, but Jim and I don't think that is what God has called us to right now. Second, God gave me several verses that reminded me that he has got all this. He knows the plan and he will take care of us. I may want but certainly do not NEED to know what that looks like. Third, we began to realize that we need to just wait on somethings and really seek God. There were things that we thought we wanted, but those same things could prevent us from serving God and add an element of stress to life that neither Jim nor I might really want. Along with that, we might make some job choices that don't seem like the "thing" to do, but might be just want God wants from us.

So today, I feel peaceful. I have this new perspective that tells me the future may not look like what I thought, but might actually be better in the long run. That it is better to be where God wants you than what looks like the perfect in the world's eyes.

Today I also am reminded that what incredibly blessed I am to have the husband I have. It is amazing to me what he will walk through, what he will suffer, what he will let go of all for the sake of his family. The fact that he would considering stepping back a bit from his career path or altering it because of what God may call me to is amazing. Will we ever be super rich or successful in the eyes of the world? Probably not... However, what I have in a friendship and general life experiences with my best friend is worth so much more than the rest of it. I don't mind hard work or frugality especially when I do with someone who would sacrifice (and often does) everything for us.

Some family notes. Kyle came home from school yesterday running a temp. It made today interesting with me needing to do some work stuff. However, Kyle and Grandma B were able to manage pretty well together for a short time. I am nervous that Conner will get this and be sick on Sunday or Monday which are both big days. Sunday is our ultrasound trip to Des Moines and Monday is the day that i have a tremendous about of set up to do at church with the remodeling we are doing. So I am hoping Conner misses this one. Right now, Kyle's fever is pretty low and he is pretty much acting normal so that I am thankful for too.

This weekend we are staying out at my in-laws taking care of Grandma and the dogs. It is kind of a mini vacation. A break from all the projects on my mind at home and if Kyle gets healthy enough, Grandma LOVES to go out to eat so that will be some fun too.